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To The Caregiver Who Never Gets Time Off

“Be still and know that I am God.” Wait…don’t leave yet! Hang with me for just a bit, I promise this is for you. On my mind and heart this week has been the mom (or caregiver) who never gets time off or time away. I don’t know your name, but I’ve been you and I’ve been praying for you…

Written by Sarah McGuire

“Be still and know that I am God.” Wait…don’t leave yet! Hang with me for just a bit, I promise this is for you. On my mind and heart this week has been the mom (or caregiver) who never gets time off or time away. I don’t know your name, but I’ve been you and I’ve been praying for you.

You have a child who needs constant care, like CONSTANT, like, you can’t go to the bathroom and have those 30 seconds of peace alone, or drink a warm cup of coffee with a satisfied sigh – a cold sip 2 hours later, with one hand occupied with your child, maybe.

No one else gets it. No one understands. Your child’s needs are so unique and significant no one else is either able or willing to care for him/her for a couple hours so you could just sleep, or breath, or step outside and look at the sunshine. You feel so alone. I feel your pain. I feel the weight you carry. I see the conflict in your soul – you LOVE your child! But you just need a break.

 And then there’s Psalm 46:10, “Be still and know that I am God” - like there’s time for that!? When your child is never still or quiet and you are on duty all day and all night, how are you supposed to find time to be still in God’s presence so you can know Him better? It feels like one more thing on our to-do list that will never get done, doesn’t it? Those impossible things that are forever out of reach.

Have you ever read Ps 46:10 and paid attention to the surrounding verses?

I’ll summarize them for you (because, of course, your hands are full and you can’t toggle to that other screen or grab a Bible right now)…there are earthquakes, mountains crumbling, landslides, turbulent oceans, flooding, nations in chaos, kingdoms failing. Then, “Come, see the glorious works of the LORD…He causes wars to end throughout the earth. He breaks the bow and snaps the spear...” And here it is, “Be still, and know that I am God! I will be honored by every nation. I will be honored throughout the world. The LORD of Heaven’s Armies is here among us; the God of Israel is our fortress.”

Psalm 46:10 isn’t a command to literally be still and spend lots of quiet time with Him. It’s not a command to do something. It is a promise that He is a refuge, fortress, strength and that He has all of heaven’s armies to help address those troubles.

It’s our job to go to Him as our refuge and then “be still.” The Greek word used there for “be still” literally means “sink, relax” it could also be said “stop striving and let go” and watch His awesomeness (aka “know that I am God). Doesn’t “sinking” and “relaxing” (it makes me think of a bubble bath) while someone else who is unconditional love, all-powerful and with legions at His command takes over sound absolutely blissful?

This verse is not a call to do one more thing. It is a call for you to stop striving and to rest in Him, His strength, His protection, His care.

On those days and nights where we feel worn so thin we think we might just wear away to nothing and we don’t even have the energy to think anymore, it’s past time for us to cry out to Him as our refuge, fortress, help, Commander of Heaven’s Armies – it doesn’t have to be eloquent, even, “help” is sufficient - and see what He does.

I’d love to hear about it. I’d love to put a name to these prayers I’ve been praying for “the mom who doesn’t get a break.” Drop me a message, I’d love to pray for you by name!

Written by Sarah McGuire

SARAH MCGUIRE IS THE MOM OF TWO BOYS AND CO-FOUNDER OF HOPE ANEW, A NONPROFIT THAT GUIDES PARENTS TO CHRIST-CENTERED HOPE AND HEALING. YOU CAN FOLLOW HOPE ANEW ON FACEBOOK HERE.

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BreAnn Tassone BreAnn Tassone

REST

I had big plans for the vibe my family would have. I love classical music and jam band music and Bob Marley. I love cozy blankets and crackling fires. I love the beautiful smells and sounds and sites of nature. I love all things calm and soothing and soft and comforting and chill. I think it’s always been my way to cope with my own anxiety, and I always pictured the perfect workplace for me would be a spa. I had every intention of carrying that vibe over into how I parented and the lifestyle our family would thrive in.

Oh boy. It has been far from the reality of how things have been going…

Written by BreAnn Tassone

I had big plans for the vibe my family would have.  I love classical music and jam band music and Bob Marley.  I love cozy blankets and crackling fires.  I love the beautiful smells and sounds and sites of nature.  I love all things calm and soothing and soft and comforting and chill.  I think it’s always been my way to cope with my own anxiety, and I always pictured the perfect workplace for me would be a spa. I had every intention of carrying that vibe over into how I parented and the lifestyle our family would thrive in.  

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Oh boy.  It has been far from the reality of how things have been going.  In muddling through the parenting of young children and the task of figuring out the special needs we have in our home, it has been anything but chill.  It has been beautiful and full of love and happiness, but it has also been frantic, electrified, a tad loud and flat out buzzing in our home.   I laugh as I type this, because we can plan and envision our future all we like.  We just aren’t in charge of the twists and turns our life will take.  My sharing this is in no way a complaint.  I have none, aside from the fact that I’d love a little more sleep.  Just a little.  It's a fact.  Our vibe is the opposite of the therapeutic calm I maintained in my home as a single woman.

I recently read an article about the effects of hyper-focusing on our children.  I think the piece was probably written with a typical child-rearing experience in mind, but it stung a little reading it.  It made me ask myself a couple of questions.  Am I too hyper-focused on the needs in our home, and missing the calm and chill we all would benefit from?  Am I able to turn this buzz off by creating that vibe I so desire here, that I had always intended before things got so hard? Can I just rest even within the frantic?  Those thoughts all flew through my mind as I read this article.  

Then the thought that pops into my mind so often, did just that.  It popped in.  “But, we’re different”.  I have to constantly assess needs and if I’m not focused in, I might miss it.  One of the systems we have in place, may fail if not surveilled each moment.  And we are different, but hasn’t it been my mission to convince the World that all people are different, and in that way we are the same?  We are not so different, that this message should not apply to us as well.  We are loving parents. Ensuring that every need is met is important, but the focus of our entire family life does not have to be based on our children.  While meeting the special needs we’ve encountered, it feels time to rest in terms of the hyper-focus I’ve felt to this point. 

It occurred to me that I had gotten very swept up in figuring it out and in the research and in the moments that I felt helpless in. It clicked that my children will benefit from the calm I’ve always clung to as a coping mechanism for myself.  It’s almost as if, in the flurry of the last few years, I’d forgotten how to procure an environment of rest.  

After mulling over this, I started claiming some peace and calm at home for myself, but for my children, as well.  We can parent our special needs family members well without putting all of our focus on parenting.  In removing the unseen microscope from the members of our family, each one can exhale.  And if we need anything, after the whirlwind of navigating PANS/PANDAS in our case, we all need rest.  We need rest during all of the storms of life. 

We are still well within the storm on many days, but I can relax.  My kids can, too.


Written by BreAnn Tassone

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BreAnn is a wife and mother to two beloved children.  Her 8 year old son is twice exceptional and has been diagnosed with PANS/PANDAS, and her 3 year old daughter is his most incredible advocate.  They both bring joy to this world in their own individual ways. BreAnn lives with her family in central Virginia.  She is a former Special Education teacher and serves as a volunteer at her church within the special needs ministry.  She is a homeschooler and coordinates groups and events within her community to support the childhood experience of her neighbors and friends. It is her conviction that all children benefit when all children are included, accepted and can live this life learning from and supporting each other.

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Naomi Brubaker Naomi Brubaker

R.E.S.T.

Being a parent often seems like there is never enough time, and often we shortchange ourselves on rest to compensate. Sometimes I thrive on all the hustle and bustle, and other times I feel as though I’m on a speeding train I’d love to make an immediate departure from. The worst part is that sometimes I’m unable to distinguish between the two, propelling me into confusion.  My wife Naomi knows too well, but after I’ve given my best to work and the kids, there isn’t much left for her.  That isn’t fair, or honoring our sacred relationship.  What am I robbing myself of when I deprive myself of rest in all its forms?

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Rest.  This is an elusive and mystical word to a parent of young kids, which often makes me think;  “one day I’ll have time for that”  or  “I’ll rest when I’m dead.”  Neither of these views help me give my best to my family.  But I often fall into the trap of pushing myself, keeping busy and just getting the things done that Dad’s need to do.  Do I wear it as a badge of honor?  Possibly, and that is not healthy nor productive. That view is selfish and does nothing to glorify God.  When I can’t be my true (and rested) self, I am robbing the world of the joy God has placed in my heart.  Even if you're SuperMom or SuperDad, be honest, you can’t fake it but for so long.

But I got responsibilities man! Your quick schemes won’t work for me! Yes, it’s a challenge to find rest, or is it?  I think it’s important to remember that Grace through Jesus comes through Him, not through our deeds.  Deeds keep us busy, and we often give too much credit to our works. We spiral into an endless cycle of “doing” in order to prove our worth, and this isn’t just a spiritually manifested issue. 

I can’t give you a definition of what rest looks like, because everyone’s needs are different. But lately I’ve been thinking of an acronym that helps me, and may help you determine how you can weave rest into your schedule, however brief.  Here are my guidelines for R.E.S.T.

Recurring - Make it intentional, and on a schedule that works for you.  Even if it’s locking yourself in the bathroom to escape for 5 minutes (and yes, we have all done it).  Don’t let those little fingers under the door distract you, they will surely survive, as their only aim at that moment is to pull your attention. Setting yourself  boundaries will help you carve out some time.  Isn’t it strange how boundaries can make us more free?  Understanding this has always been a challenge, because as the parent you are always the enforcer.  In my daily rhythm, I try to catch myself “scrolling” and jolt myself into stealing my time back. We all find ourselves scrolling social media, so this is the perfect time to reclaim that few minutes as your own.  I also find that if I wake up before my kids, it’s hard for them to interrupt me during that time.  It’s the absolutely most perfect time of the day, since I tend to be a morning person.

Enjoy - The act of resting should recharge you, which means it should be a departure from your normal routine.  Shock your system by doing something you enjoy, which is something you have probably deprived yourself of as a busy parent.  You will be surprised how even a small burst will recharge your battery. This is a deeply personal choice, dig deep for something God has uniquely placed in your heart. 

Solitary - I’m a social person, so this one is sometimes a struggle for me.  But I find with the constant draw for my attention by my kids, the best rest for me in my current phase of life is often in solitude. It gives me a chance to reflect, which leads to the last and most important part.

Thankful - When you take time away, always do so with a thankful attitude.  You shouldn’t shame yourself while you are taking time away, that will always be self defeating.  The idea of rest (in the form of a sabbath) is deeply Biblical. You can choose to explore any of the scriptures around this topic, but I always fall back on the creation story. If God decided to take a rest, then it’s perfectly fine for you to do so as well! 

As you go about your day, I challenge you to implement these ideas.  Did you notice that it costs nothing?  And that it has no constraints on what you should do, or how long it should take?  You may need to enlist some help for you to carve out a small block of time, this is also perfectly acceptable. It is a process, just make sure that you protect what works for you. Take heart in this, and work on giving a slightly better version of yourself to the world. We are called to let our light shine, so do so with a restful heart.  

Written by Jesse Brubaker

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Sarah McGuire Sarah McGuire

It's Not All On You

I didn’t dare move a muscle. Breathe in, breathe out, quiet, shallow, in, out. Don’t move. My son was finally asleep cradled in my arms against my chest. If I could just not move or breathe, maybe, just maybe he would sleep for 15-20 minutes and for that 15-20 minutes there would be no screaming and he wouldn’t feel the pain and I could rest – sort of. Written by Sarah McGuire

I didn’t dare move a muscle. Breathe in, breathe out, quiet, shallow, in, out. Don’t move. My son was finally asleep cradled in my arms against my chest. If I could just not move or breathe, maybe, just maybe he would sleep for 15-20 minutes and for that 15-20 minutes there would be no screaming and he wouldn’t feel the pain and I could rest – sort of.

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Once, as a young mom, I remember saying to a more experienced mom, “God has given my son to me to care for and love on this earth. But, he isn’t really mine. He’s God’s. It’s my job to love him well.” She murmured words of agreement as her eyebrows rose and a somewhat sad, knowing half-smile filled her face. It was several years later I learned she had lost her eldest child in an accident many years before, long before I knew her, and I finally realized the significance of that knowing smile. 

Somewhere between the time I made that statement and the birth of my second child with the entry of additional needs in our lives I forgot those wise words and the perspective I had once held. Somehow, I took upon myself the weight and responsibility for how my son’s health journey progressed, how comfortable he was or wasn’t, for trying to alleviate his pain, and when I couldn’t, for comforting him and being with him every moment through his pain.   

His pain never stopped, so neither did I. I didn’t give myself a moment to rest because he had needs. Do I regret being there for him, comforting him, and doing everything I could do to help his body heal? No, not for an instant. But, I do wish I hadn’t carried the weight of it on my shoulders, especially to the extent that I never gave myself a break. This dear, beloved, hurting child wasn’t solely my child. He was ultimately God’s child.

Isn’t God so much more powerful than I am anyway? I couldn’t do much to change my son’s situation or stop his pain. But I could entrust him to the One who created him, who knew every one of his days before he was even conceived, who loved him so much He suffered and died for him, who was powerful enough to conquer death, who knows the number of hairs on my son’s head, and collects all his tears (all 24 hours/day worth of them) in a bottle. I could be His arms holding and comforting this precious boy, God’s love in action, but the future and outcomes are in His control, not mine. Sometimes, I could also step back and allow someone else’s arms to hold him while I took a break and got some rest.

If you’re feeling overwhelmed. If you are carrying the weight of your child’s health challenges, diagnosis, and future. If you are so weighed down you cannot rest or take a break, remember this child is God’s child. Ask Him for a way forward, for help in caring for His dear, beloved child. Then, take a step back on occasion and trust.

Written by Sarah McGuire

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Sarah McGuire  is the Mom of two boys and co-founder of Hope Anew, a nonprofit that comes alongside the parents of children impacted by disability on a spiritual and emotional level. You can follow Hope Anew on Facebook here.

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Laurisa Ballew Laurisa Ballew

Healthy Rhythms Part 1: Rest

It feels a little bit vulnerable to write about the importance of Healthy Rhythm to this group. Because let’s be honest, raising a child with any kind of special need does NOT lend itself to that. Written by Laurisa Ballew

It feels a little bit vulnerable to write about the importance of Healthy Rhythm to this group. Because let’s be honest, raising a child with any kind of special need does NOT lend itself to that. There are so many things that are unpredictable and our plans change frequently.  Because that is our reality it makes rest so much more important.

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Early on in our special needs parenting journey my husband and I were really lucky to be a part of a church that highly valued healthy rhythms of rest, work, and relationship, and so they became priorities for us.

So, let’s dig in and talk a bit about healthy rhythms.

One that is extremely important for all parents, but even more so those of us parenting child with high needs is REST. I define rest as something that brings you life. And that might look extremely different person to person. For me rest is active. I don’t do still well. So getting to go peruse target- kid free, while listening to an audio book feels restful. Or spending some time being creative, whether that is doing a home project, or sewing, that process of creating while might seem like work gives me life.  Now my husband would consider both of those things work. And his rest often looks like getting away to watch whatever NFL game is on with a buddy. Or having literally nothing on the schedule.  

Rest is something that is so vital for us to remain or get into a healthy place, but it feels impossible at times.  So how do we make it happen?  

We have to Plan & Protect it. 

I don’t know about you guys, but nothing LITERALLY NOTHING important gets done unless it is on my calendar. Especially not something that is for me and me alone. No matter how vital something is to me I will push it off to meet the more urgent needs. But if I fail to take care of my needs it leads me to a thin place and then things start to unravel.

 Rest for me started when a friend offered to watch my daughter 1 day a week for a few hours. It meant I had to let go a bit, trusting my friend to take care of my complex (then seizing) kiddo. At first it felt awkward setting aside those four hours to myself every week to not get things done, but to instead bring fresh air to my overwhelmed life. Then it became a habit. It became a time I relied on and resulted in me coming back as a better mom, wife and woman. Over the years it has transitioned to my husband allowing me the time every week and me doing the same for him. But we have to start by planning and protecting it.

God did not design us to work endlessly and then fit in rest at the end if possible. God created man on day six. And then day seven was a rest day. THEN, only after a day of rest Man set to work in the garden. 

How would our lives change if we committed to scheduling a block of rest time- something that is life giving every week and doing it- and then working from our rest instead of resting from our work?

Written by Laurisa Ballew

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Laurisa Ballew is a nurse by trade and mother to a special needs child by fate. She fiercely believes hope and grief walk hand in hand in life, and that storytelling is the universal language that connects us all.  Laurisa has three daughters and writes about the constant humility of parenting in her blog Raising A Sisterhood

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